I'm not depressed, really. Melancholy. A little too content. I don't know what to do without stress. Everything is so bland and comfortable. I'm not complaining; I'm just not real sure what to do with myself.
I know, I'm a spoiled brat. Trust me, I don't like myself for it. I sort of wish I could just quit and distribute my organs to people who will do something wonderful with their lives. Or horrible - just do anything.
I remember feeling like this when I first got to college. It worsened into true depression after awhile, but at first it was just this restless nothing, this looking to find something beyond a candy-coated existance. It was this feeling that had me clinging to Mark with both hands. Perhaps that's why I hate it.
Or perhaps I'm just being a whiny baby and I should pull my head out of my butt and go play Scrabble with my incredibly wonderful husband.
Probably the latter.
~Em~
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